Posted by susan47 on April 16, 2009, at 0:13:00
In reply to Histrionic, narcissistic, posted by susan47 on April 13, 2009, at 23:18:43
Or maybe not crazy at all, maybe just tired of being abused by people. And people who were mean and gossipy and jealous, of what I don't know, but just stupid narrow-minded ignorant people who feel better when they see themselves as living as perfectly as possible.
I can't stand it, and I won't anymore.
It's just stupid, and crazy in its own very peculiar way.
Because we're only here once; we have a responsibility to be the best we can, to do the best we can, but we're all constantly letting ourselves down. Some of us are too hard on ourselves, others not hard enough. Hard, life is meant to be hard. Isn't that what parents say? Is it supposed to make a kid feel better or something? "Nobody ever said life was fair" and on and on ... I'm so tired of all the b*llsh*t in life.
Sick of all the political b*llsh*t while the planet's already festering on its way to oblivion of life as we know it. Even the life I knew as a kid is gone forever, my kids'll never see bear in the wild, fish in a river full of steelhead, spend the days on the soft white gold-flecked sand of the Skeena, those days are gone forever. Are they?
I need to find out, before I'm gone. I figure I might have ten years with all the smoking of mj I do. Daily, my lungs are building up tar and the wrinkles are deeper by the week, I think.
Being a woman who cared about her looks most of her adult life, this is very hard to take. And it's time to stop caring about those things, it's time to live.
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