Posted by susan47 on September 24, 2008, at 13:49:33
Have you ever had an experience of being traumatized and re-traumatized by a certain scenario or a repetition of events in your life, as in, for example, what happens every time I step into the rooms I occupy here in this house-of-my-ex- , when I step into these rooms something in my soul cries out to me, I AM UNHAPPY HERE, I CANNOT LIVE HERE, PLEASE DON'T BRING ME IN HERE ANYMORE ... but then I remember times that were happy, or if not exactly joyous, then times that were certainly more secure in the way of knowing I had a place in this world. The not knowing, now, why I am here or what my existence is to be made of... the moments of insecurity which stretch into minutes then hours then days and finally, weeks, months and then years into the infinity that will have been my life.
I love you. I love you. I love you. My soul cries out to the infinite darkness, I love you please be true to me, please love me too.
poster:susan47
thread:853817
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