Posted by susan47 on September 15, 2008, at 15:11:35
In reply to Re: The Innocent, posted by WaterSapphire on August 29, 2008, at 16:03:42
I've just returned from a very long, long road trip, to Los Angeles, city of Concrete Jungle, and heard no birdsong for almost two weeks. By yesterday, and I don't know if it was a reason for my feeling so low, suicidal yet again dear Susan, when will I learn that my existential angst is only increased by aforementioned illicit substance, when will I learn that as I drive ego out of every cell of my being, I annihilate physically also that which gives my spirit wings .. my physical body is crumbling, my body is one day to become a monument, to what? "Swimming in a Sea of Death" by David Rieff ... this reading will make me insane, surely this is the existential push into oblivion .. or something like that, some such nonsense, coming out of an ego screaming in pain, no, please don't take me, not now not ever please NO!
How nicely a road visit to LA put this all into perspective, this existential fear of being/not being, when hell was where I lived, how more closely can one come to hell than a society entirely dependent upon fossil fuel, the one thing that is annihilating the fabric of that very society not inch by inch, but pouund-by-carbon-pound, dirty guzzling freaking automobile/planes/trains/Disney adventures in Space, the diesel fumes will kill you while you get your thrill, dear Walt was this what you had in mind, people spending three days wandering your concrete jungle in the heat of a world gone dead while your Futureworld boasts of the miracle of never needing to eat or drink, or sleep or go to the bathroom, when in truth all this media hype has killed us, our brains are depressed with the inability to Work for Pleasure anymore, to grow our own food, bear our children as we were intended to, live as a society in dependence upone one another .. the end will come as surely as we have lived.
Please, God, is faith all there is left? Are people really listening, Anywhere?
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