Posted by WaterSapphire on August 21, 2008, at 4:41:07
This Guilt Inside
From Poverty
and Illness that have taken
My Life from me.I cannot take care of
So many things
Every penny is gone
I no longer can singMy most precious angels
I cannot protect
My most cherished memories
My mind and body rejectThis Guilt Inside
Is Killing me Now
I cannot get out
I do not know howThis sword that pierces
This burden I carry
This fight not worth fighting
I do not drink and make merryI hate my own being
I detest my own skin
I feel no true comfort
From without or withinPain and regret
Isolation's infernal bog
Shadows engulf me
My mind wallows in fogTHIS suffering does not cease
It may change with mutation
Morphing with time
With increasing frustrationI don't know who I am
I have no hope left from before
I have eaten the last crumb
The dogs left on the floorIf you look at me and see ugliness
If you look at me and see sorrow
If you look at me and hear my screams
I won't return your glance tomorrowThis Guilt inside is endless
I can no longer see my reflection
All the mirrors have broken at the sight of me
All the roads have lost their directionI am lost, and weak, and hated
I am the one who did my best
I am the one who no one listened to
I never could pass the world's social testI am the one who has analyzed everything
I have been as careful as I possibly could be
But there is no respite for my weary soul
Or this GUILT INSIDE OF ME!!!!!
poster:WaterSapphire
thread:847497
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