Posted by Susan47 on May 2, 2008, at 10:59:49
In reply to Journal, posted by susan47 on May 1, 2008, at 18:35:24
I just smoked the last of my roaches, about seven or eight of them all cut up papers and all into one last joint, it was so disgusting and the taste in my mouth .. foul. I never thought this would be me. I don't want the yellow teeth and the yellow saliva, I remember once i judged a guy because he was a chainsmoker and when he threw his head back and laughed with his mouth open, there was all this yellow saliva. It was so gross. i never kissed him, it would have been gross.
Now I am doing things like this. Like I KNOW better. Like, I brush and brush and drink healthy homemade fresh juices and eat plain yogurt with Immunocal in it, pure protein, high quality protein to stave off disease, and look what I'm doing to my brain, to my lungs, to my cells. Oh, God.
F*ck it f*ck it f*ck f*ck f*ck.
Anything to feel without fear.
poster:Susan47
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