Posted by susan47 on December 25, 2007, at 20:26:48
Because I have no other options left anymore, because this is the only thing I am allowed, without appearing such a fool, such an idiot, for letting it all hang out. This is where I will do so. Now I have my forum, now I have my reason for living this minute.
The orange chakra .. you ignited mine. Yes, You did, and I'm so sorry you hated every minute of it, I'm so sorry I dragged it out into something you had to reject, had to reject and look at with such detachment, cutting off more than just one of us, cutting down the patient even as you cut yourself off from your own vital life force, with the force of your mind, a mind gone ballistic with the need to deny what was coming up for you and squashing me flat in the process, squashing me and I was fighting to breathe, fighting to maintain my own life force which you were draining away with your deaf ear.
God, how I wish I could penetrate your heart, your brain, your soul with the understanding that I am not the enemy, that I was and am not crazy, that I am sane and thinking and whole, Whole, in spite of everything, all the death force you hurled at me. I hurled it right back, and maybe at times I even created it myself, maybe I was more than a mirror, maybe I was nothing, maybe I am nothing, not even like a grain of sand in your shoe anymore.
How lovely for you.
The orange chakra, I need to talk about this, because it supplies energy for sexuality, reproduction, the enjoyment of life, and the physical attraction in relationships. It is also one of the areas where guilt is hidden and is the main locatiohn of the shadow self.
Darling.
*ssh*l*.
Do you understahd? Now, the *ssh*l* is where the red chakra is.
Let's talk about that next time.
poster:susan47
thread:802593
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