Posted by Scarlet-Tears on October 11, 2006, at 5:38:11
choking, breathe stolen from my lungs,
as if I'm drowning in midair,
eyes filled with hysterical tears
this room suddenly...
looks massive now,
Was it always this big?
Spinning, colors, dizzy,
gasping for air, it's scarce
harder to breathe
my little body heaves, gasps
with the first cry of distress...
I feel something, engulfing,
approaching slowly, spreading,
around my throat, enclosing
but there is nothing there,
invisble phantoms closing in
with ghastly hands,
it hurts, I can't breathe
tightening, more, more
mama, mama, I cry,
I'm choking, choking
asphyxiating on ghostly thoughts,
take this veiled rope off my neck,
I try to speak, I only babble
saliva, tears, fierce gibberish,
my sweaty liittle palms
clenching on the bars,
stuck in my enclosed prison
colorful toys surround me,
laughing at my anguish,
mama, mama, I'm scared!
pulling on my shirt
around my neck
too tight, take it off
can't breath mama!
arms reach out to no one...
the phantom jeers, leers at me,
unbendable, unyielding,
lily-white paws
clenching at my throat...
my cries get louder, desperate,
footsteps echoing in halls
relief on its way, finally
mama your daughter calls:
cries, screams, in terror...
she's dying, so young, please,
don't let her go, hold her close,
she lifts my tiny body from my crib,
her arms are here, so comforting
holding me, softness engulfs me,
compassion in her eyes,
soothes her baby as only a mother can,
not an inkling
not a clue...
her baby had her first
anxiety attack
poster:Scarlet-Tears
thread:693761
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/write/20060920/msgs/693761.html