Posted by special_k on April 4, 2006, at 8:33:31
In reply to Unwritten, posted by Shame on April 3, 2006, at 14:05:04
I don't write anything worthy to be called 'writing' very often. Occasionally I manage to get a poem out, but mostly not even that. Sometimes I try... But I can't seem to do it. Can't find the words. The style. I don't know, but I just can't seem to do it.
Mostly... I just ramble along really. But I do. I post it. Ramble along. Vent. Whatever. But maybe I shouldn't. I don't know. I guess I just say this because I want you to know that its okay. Its okay to post like this. Doesn't have to be a poem. Or anything like that. Or at least I don't think it has to be. I've never been redirected off here lol.
Sorry to ramble so. I guess I just mean to say that I think I understand that feeling. Sometimes i get another feeling too. Of needing to say something so bad. But having trouble, more than a little. I'm glad you are doing better than you were, but I'm sorry that things still hurt :-(
I feel broken too. Sometimes I think about what could have been. I think a lot about what I might be like, what my life would have been like if my parents had loved me. If I'd be a better person. A kinder person. A person who could do math. A person who was liked more. A person who enjoyed physical activity. Without a broken body. Without these memories. Maybe someone who could be able to help others more. Or maybe I wouldn't care about that 'cause I'd just be living my life. I don't know. But I think on it a bit :-(
Means something to me.I feel broken too :-(
I wish it didn't have to be this way :-(
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