Posted by Susan47 on March 13, 2006, at 16:04:10
Wasted on you, you see.
I could have been doing other things
things that made me feel good about myself,
not bad.
I could have focussed on the loving of you,
my hero
Because do you know what a hero is?
A hero's who I needed
A hero is someone who subverts his own wellbeing for the good of someone else,
which is what I think you did,
my love .. not meaning that in a threatening way,
nor a close way, at all, because I'm not here to freak anyone out
Not here at all
Not in that way, not in the way that you think.
Because this is not my face
and these are not my fingers
this is my mind .. a bowl of jelly ..
what does it weigh, how many ounces
jelled here, on the keyboard ..
no no no, it's NOT what you're thinking ...
do you see how your own mind plays tricks on you?
Do you see? Because I am whole,
I will live to be one hundred and one, one hundred and one,
because I think I want to.
I can put the bad things away ...
do you know why?
Because, and I hope I'm not wrong,
(but if I am may I never be crushed into knowing)
a hero can be a real person.
poster:Susan47
thread:619855
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/write/20060125/msgs/619855.html