Posted by 10derHeart on March 9, 2006, at 10:27:01
In reply to Re: ((((Daisy)))) ((((((B2))))) » 10derHeart, posted by Daisym on March 7, 2006, at 1:03:16
I hope I didn't upset you. <<
No need to try to take care of me, 'specially not on this board :-) (I know it comes naturally to you, like a reflex, and that's so kind, but unecessary.) You posted 'trigger' in your subject and I read anyway. Because it was you, and I care about what you post on any board.
You know....when such painful experiences like these are confided, shared...I da*n sure hope they upset me and everyone. The day writing like that doesn't upset me....well, I don't ever want that day to come. But Daisy (and I know you already know this) *you* didn't upset me - *it* did. Not because it's a personal trigger, in that I have no csa in my own past, but I have friends who do and I see them suffer still.
More broadly than that, it's about children. I adore them. I treasure them. They transfix me with their innocence and sweetness. Their mere presence around me in the past 2-3 years when I was seriously depressed and wanting to give up actually saved me, lifted me out of the pit more than once. I can hardly describe with mere words what the hug of a child does for my heart and spirit.
I think I'd do about anything to protect a child from physical, sexual, emotional harm if I possibly could. So, yes it upsets me on many levels. If only, if only I could erase it all, time travel back and make this abuse never happen to you...
God bless you for having the courage and trust in Babblers to post about it here. You are one beautiful and amazing soul.
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