Posted by Susan47 on November 5, 2005, at 20:14:18
In reply to I'm the Fun One, posted by Susan47 on November 5, 2005, at 19:14:21
This rambles in directions no sane person would understand ... and some day I may not either. Please God (although I don't believe in such a thing, Thing, haha) don't let me be insane.
I've never been out with a married guy. I just find them too despicable. I've watched other people. It doesn't take long to learn. I almost had one person feel guilty about seeing me. Do you know what that does to you? It makes you feel like you did something wrong. And you haven't. You didn't do a damn thing, you just saw them for what they are. You, being me, of course. I just wish that in my lifetime I had slept with no man, because quite frankly, no man has ever been worth the trouble. And I feel kind of.. okay, impure, okay? For letting these other men touch me, men who are just worms like all the rest. Women are like that too, women can be not worth the trouble, they can be worm-like as well.
But finally I can honestly say, I'm not like that. That isn't me. That might have been you but it wasn't me. I like myself, finally. And if you've turned out to be disappointing as a human being, then that's not my problem, it was never my problem. I just took it on, because I felt sorry for your poor *ss. Do you believe me? Maybe I'm just being super-bitch. But do you know, if I had a brain I wouldn't share any of this stuff with you. Because it's all disrespected, in any case. You can be extremely disrespectful.
poster:Susan47
thread:575746
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