Posted by alexandra_k on August 31, 2005, at 18:42:05
In reply to Re: UNSUPPORTIVE?!! » alexandra_k, posted by zenhussy on August 31, 2005, at 10:45:55
Its okay.
> living in this world ain't easy.
> living in the head is the hardest way and also the easiest...for a while.I hope I will always spend a significant part of my time there.
> living in the heart? well that's a whole 'nother thread....Indeed. And there are many of those as well. I imagine I will always spend a significant part of my time there too.
And I hope...
That my head isn't too far away from my heart.
In a good way.
And I hope to learn...
To bring my emotions more into line with my head.
In a good way.But I have to do both.
Because they are both parts of who I am.
And all I can say... Is that I guess some people must react / respond fairly negatively to my head stuff for that to be considered unacceptable to post.
I really don't...
Understand what is up with that.
Okay, yeah, people here react / respond negatively to it sometimes too.
But what is that about?
I guess its typically because they don't see some of my other more emotional posts.
Or because they think I'm trying to argue (and I need to get better at not having such an argumentative style which is hard because that is fostered in other contexts)
Or because they...
Feel bad because they don't understand.
Feel bad because they don't know how to respond.
???
I'm not sure.
I agonise over it sometimes...
But...
Well...
Its who I am.
And I try and be sensitive.
I need to get better there but I really do try.
And beyond that...I think...
That the problem is in other people being too quick to react to me. To what I have to say. Without taking the time to understand. Or without understanding. And most especially without asking me why I do it. And considering that.I don't know...
How much to alter ones behaviour to come into line with what other people want...
I guess you have to weigh up how important it is to you... And how much other people are affected. And how much they are able to control how badly they are affected.I don't understand why some people have such a problem with me.
And maybe its my coping strategy...
But I think
I really think...
It is their problem.I tried to understand and I just don't.
And nobody was willing / able to explain it to me.
I wasn't given an explanation at all.
Just repeatedly told that 'those kinds of posts' are unacceptable. I was being officially warned.
No explanation as to WHY they are unacceptable.
And I'm sorry but...
Thats not good enough.
Takes me back to my crazy-making childhood.
Lots of punishers
And no explanation.
F*ck that
You can take that back thanks
I don't like the noise it makes.
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