Posted by Damos on August 22, 2005, at 17:27:35
In reply to Re: Yikes!!! » Damos, posted by AdaGrace on August 22, 2005, at 8:03:20
Hmmmm.....at the time probably both.
But I am okay. This is the first time I've really fought back hard. Also the first time I've written about it as plainly and immediately and I honestly think seeing it there helped, helped me say 'stuff you mate, think what you like but I am doing okay.'
Sh*t at work and at home started the slide Thursday and into Friday and then I fed it some other stuff to help it along and then WHAMMO the original post. I also realised yesterday that it's just over 3 years since my last trip to the abyss so I was probably due for a slide, and it was also a full moon (clutching at straws here). And if I'm honest I've probably been holding a bunch of stuff in as well that was just looking for a trigger.
But the fact that once I was able to see what was happening and not feed it any more, not give myself over to it really helped me see how far I've come. I was able to look at some things that have happened recently and see where not so long ago I would have been a complete mess, I've done okay. Still a ways to go, but okay. I'll try and babblemail you something a little more coherent.
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