Posted by Carolina on July 29, 2005, at 21:42:02
hurting inside, the pain is so real
i sometimes wonder if i'd rather not feel
my heart is a rock
i feel twisted inside
it's starting to crack
no where to hide
can't release a tear for fear i will cry
i am angry and confused
why is this happening to me
it's part of my soul
that's been ripped away from me
i pray for relief from this hell i endure
how much more i can take i am very unsure
no medicine to numb or deny the pain
why the f*ck did this happen
without him life is not the same
i pray even more for God to comfort me
i feel no relief, only pure agony
without my Austin it's just not the same
just one more twist in lifes ugly game
i'd like to just quit and give up the fight
i try not to think so i stay awake day and night
not knowing where to turn, so damn tired can't think
i knew it was time to deal with the pain
but i never imagined it would feel so insane
my baby, my life, my blood in his veins
God---damn you; i miss him can you help heal the pain?
It makes me wonder how my mom and dad could walk out on me
only a shell of a heart is what it must be
7 months of the hurt locked deeply inside
it's torture to feel but theres no where to hide
reality's hit but it seems to unreal
this nightmare i cant wake from
unfortunately it's real...
poster:Carolina
thread:535452
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/write/20050621/msgs/535452.html