Posted by cockeyed on July 18, 2005, at 1:07:14
In reply to Just Shoot Me, posted by AdaGrace on July 14, 2005, at 1:40:18
AdaGrace, no. no. no. for christ's sake the damn days go by. each one sucks. But they go by. I used to play with myself, about how I'd die...pills and booze, a shot-gun to my eye. Ah, but I'm a manly-man, and that's a manly way to die. But we're all just prisoner's of our own device, stole that from Hotel California, nice cheery music...but Ada I've been there. so, just lay down on the floor, and if you have to beat your fists and say you can't take no more. Then pray a prayer like you never prayed before. Listen to me, I believe in crap. that's as far as I'll go...right now. But when it gets too damn much, fall on the floor and let go. Give up, hell, what do you have to lose? And make the stupid leap into the darkness...hey, you'll still be on the floor. I know this sounds like bullsh*t but, it's worked for me before. I lost my beloved step-son. I couldn't take no more. So I just friggin'gave up and leaped...Hell, I don't know where. I know it was dark, but I did not give a damn. And when I got up, things still sucked, but somehow I knew there was more.
Man, this seems to sound so stupid, but...this is a friggin crazy world. Don't quit. Cockeyed.
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