Posted by cockeyed on July 4, 2005, at 15:34:14
had a chance to hit the zombie dance
nice place to be
picnic with the family
july 4 and all that happy s**t
but i'm having none of it
wife went, i stayed home
alone.
the grief has finally hit the fan.
lost my best friend a year ago
and now, how i miss the man.
slept til two thanks to an amped up brew of
mood stabilizers.
Yeah, well stabilize this...
okay, not going there
not going anywhere
too damn angry and insane
got a lit fuse up in my brain
got drunk and almost went off
but not quite far enuff
so i'll read my AARP
full of tips of how to be over 50
and "happy"
oh please.
turned on some beatles tapes.
john and george are dead
and so is a special part of me
and it's all just in my head.
i should go back and give this crap
a good and thoro revision
but i'm to lazy and depressed to make any kind of
decision.
maybe i should read some threads
but oh to hell with that
I'll go drink an energy drink
and gnaw on something fat.
and hope there's some mindless crap
on the tube that'll stop me from this run
but i'm running on zombie time
my racing days are done.
so i'll drink some stale coffee and
curse my year dead friend
and laff about all the times we'd b.s. about the
end.
he said 62 and the s.o.b. was right.
but i don't want to go just yet
maybe better days will sail in sight
on better winds with bigger waves and i'll
get to swim
in the cold cold water I love so much
and I won't think of him
cockeyed.[now i know what's meant by "eating your heart out"]
poster:cockeyed
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