Posted by alexandra_k on June 30, 2005, at 3:51:47
In reply to And the Babblers have gone to bed, posted by alexandra_k on June 30, 2005, at 0:56:09
I think the bad feelings are coming back.
I'd call it depression but I'm not sure thats it.
I dunno anymore
I dunno.
This past week has been hard.
Yeah I got my period but its finished now and I don't feel any better.
Hopelessness.
Thats it.
Hopelessness.
Lets try and get it out so I can get some sleep...
Nope. Theres not a lot to say.
I'll try and see t tomorrow.
Please have an opening please.
She probably won't.
I'll be okay.
I can be patient.
I can wait till Tuesday.What is to become of me?
I feel very afraid and very very small.
And there is a stress
A list of things to do
A list of things that I was supposed to be making progress on this week
That I haven't been doing.I think I need a holiday.
But then what have I been doing?
I think I need a change in scenery
But theres nowhere to go.
I don't want to sink...
I'm really afraid of it.
I think I am depressed.
Feel sad
No energy
No motivation
No enjoyment
Get caught in repetitive gestures
Building the same city
According to the same plan
Over
and
Over
and
Over
With no enjoyment
Just a kind of compulsion.
Dull
Flat
Unprofitable
I wonder if she will give me a hug.
poster:alexandra_k
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