Posted by cockeyed on May 11, 2005, at 13:19:48
In reply to Re: Somewhere in Time » sunny10, posted by broken on May 11, 2005, at 11:31:39
> > are you content to be here floating with us?
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> > I know I like having you here. And you "sound" calmer and more content- are you?
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> > peace,
> > sunny10
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> Sunny :)
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> I am happy to be here "floating". Well, I'd prefer to be much more stable, and alot less floating, but you know what I mean.
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> I am more calm. I am alot more satisfied with my treatment these days too. It really took a while to settle in with my Pdoc, and not want to rip his head off for not listening to me. Since we've agreed now on what seems to work best, and I'm reacting "decently" to it, it's alot better.
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> I think, for me anyway, one of the things that has helped is hitting the gym. I am in there 6 days a week. The drugs that I took/take seemed to have caused a weight gain. I was 5'10 175lbs, and went to 205lbs pretty damn quick. I felt pretty horrible about myself. So I began heavy weightlifting, and decided to try to convert the fat into muscle. After 7 weeks in the gym, I can see a big difference, and I just feel better in general. Obviously, it hasn't solved my problems by any means, but it has allowed me begin to feel good again about the way I look. That helped in the depression department all by itself.
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> I know, I cant give a short answer about anything. I have to write a book. I guess my short answer would be:
> Yes, I am happy I can spend time here with all of you, and yes, I am more under control than I have been in the past.
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> And Sunny, thankyou for asking... You are such a sweetheart and you make everyone feel like someone special...
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> ChrisChris, Give me a break. God in a gym...that's what I get from your post. And you know, it makes way more sense than church. I've been sick and nuts for a long time. I started taking a sledge hammer to rocks to get pieces to use in what I call "art". But that sledge hammer has given me the strength to go back out and try to play tennis. BFD, but, damn it means sanity to me. A focus on something other than hell, the emptiness of...loss of God? I don't know. He doesn't talk to me any more so I don't talk to him. But you make so much sense...I didn't realize how lucky I am to be able so pick up that sledge hammer and just swing it for exercise. No rocks, no booze, no oblivion...thanks for your "book" You hit me where it counts. Thanks, cockeyed.
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