Posted by 10derHeart on March 2, 2005, at 23:05:24
In reply to Re: Don't apologise... » 10derHeart, posted by alexandra_k on March 2, 2005, at 3:01:55
Thanks, Alex, you're the best.
I still feel a little exposed.
I know it wasn't that personal, but, I just don't usually put some of that stuff out there. Not because no one can understand. I know they can since many have had a commom emotional experience with a T. they were so very close to. It's just...I don't know. Feeling vulnerable looking at *that* part of the feelings now, eight months later. I try to play down certain aspects and just feel love for him in what I call the more profound ways. Not so muddled with traces of romance or a *crush*, or whatever. It used to be so powerful, the physical attraction stuff, and really got in the way of more lasting stuff. Not like I was graphic - didn't need to be. But maybe I'm afraid that some astute and sensitive souls, say, oh, maybe you and Susan for sure, will see way past the nice, sweet images I used to what else I was remembering I saw when I looked at him.....mmmm, oh my, it's getting warm in here. Okay. Okay. (I'm so very bad.)
Anyway, you are so firmly, honestly supportive it really strengthens me. Hope when you feel low you never forget the impact you have all over these boards. Like what Damos' awesome post talks about. Guess I can take the hands from in front of my face now....
PS - Your post was so great. I feel I know so much about that T, now. Sorry you wanted to cry, though. But then maybe you needed to.
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