Posted by Damos on February 21, 2005, at 15:47:45
A long overdue letter to a child I never met.
Dearest Katie,
I'm sorry it's taken me so long to write. I'm sorry for so many things the truth be known.
Sorry that I never cradled you in my arms; never got to count your fingers and toes.
Sorry that we were never a family, you and mum and me.
Sorry I never got to read you rhymes and tuck you in at night
Sorry that I'll never know the beautiful young woman you would have grown up to be.
Sorry that it was only last year that I held your mum and cried.
Forgive my tears precious girl, it's been 17 years but it just doesn't get any easier. But at least mum and I have finally cried our tears. I'm just sorry it took us so long. We've really made a mess of things but I hope you can understand. I hope you know that we both loved you with all our heart and soul. We wanted you more than either of us have ever wanted anything in our lives. But it wasn't enough.
We blamed each other and ourselves and the pain just proved too much and it ate us up inside. God, I miss you both so much. Especially today. It's been a while since I've seen her and we don't talk that much anymore, but there is so much love between us and that'll never change.
Please forgive me for failing to live a single day and go with God and love.
Dad
poster:Damos
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