Posted by AdaGrace on February 8, 2005, at 17:53:15
"You took my breath away"
Your words still ring in my ears.
Happy you were, or so you sounded
to see the real me,
seductive, yet vulnerable & innocent.
"Hide them"
I pleaded with embarassment.
So they were locked away.
Locked away and forgotten.
So easily forgotten.Locked away while you searched for another,
locked away while you touched and looked at others.
Locked away while I fought for my freedom.
locked away, hidden securely,
they were treated just like me.The longer they stayed that way,
the easier it became to forget me.The easier it was to be forgotten,
the harder it was for me to live.The ending is never pretty,
the ending is never easy.
The ending crashed my beliefs,
my hopes and my dreams.Reality of cruelty is the most painful experience,
especially when you don't realize things were false
until it was too late to retrieve your heart.Now, in remembrance, I am
stripped of my dignity & self respect,
robbed of my vanity and love of myself, and
raped of my creative, seductive, intelligent soul.The box has been opened and emptied,
or so you thinks.
But I am still in there, crying for relief.I am the one locked away.
I am the one safely tucked under the bed.
Never to be thought of again.The box isn't locked, yet I can't open the lid.
The lock & key are in your hand.
I can't cry for help,
you do not hear me.
Noone else will either while I am in your possession.
And yes, you still hold me bound.Eventually the air will run out in here.
While you both go on living your happy, beautiful lives, mine will end.People were hurt by this, and not only me.
Yet I will not be able to carry out your sentence.
You will have that waiting for you someday
when you are locked in a box, forgotten and hidden from the real world.May God have mercy on your cold soul.
poster:AdaGrace
thread:455119
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/write/20050118/msgs/455119.html