Posted by Jai Narayan on August 25, 2004, at 23:18:20
In reply to Re: poem...Cipher » malthus, posted by Atticus on August 25, 2004, at 20:05:09
Atticus, I was once was so in love.
After our horrible breakup I tried to talk to him but he refused to even engage with me.
The first ten years he wouldn't take my calls.
I felt I had made some headway when he finally would talk to me. At first it was small topics. Then it was deeper conversations.
He had been with a woman for eight years.
I was so envious. I now know that I could never recapture the relationship we had had.
It has taken me three decades to move into a realm of understanding that this love I wanted so much was not going to be.
I would dream about him every 5 years.
I called and he would say...."So it's been another five years...you call every five years."
I was crushed at his flippancy.
Sometimes these loves are not to be continued in this lifetime.
It takes years to understand this. I have made my peace with this and have now moved on. I met him when I was 24 and now I am 56. Gosh that's a long time!
I am now happy with the man I live with, he knows me and loves me. I appreciate this. I enjoy and love him.
There is a future for you....but you have to let go of the past to find the future.
And God that's a trick.
Thinking of you Atticus
poster:Jai Narayan
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