Posted by Toph on August 3, 2004, at 18:45:05
It's really hard to describe, actually. Partly because after an episode you have a kind of selective amnesia where you can remember only the most bizarre thoughts and actions. So it's like you are swimming through life and then, for whatever reason, you start getting this incredible energy and self-confidence. You hardly need any sleep anymore. You've become mega-cool - like you're so funny and so smart and so perfect. Before you were swimming along, but it's not like you are suddenly pulled under, it's more like the whirlpool thing they talk about, it sucks you down slowly, then faster and faster. People seem to come by to check you out, but who needs their concern? You're so horney and so powerful and no matter what you eat you burn it off 'cause by now you're up 24/7. Things start getting a little weird. Those famous people on TV, well, naturally they know you and they know the BIG secret. They know that the government is watching - hell, everybody's watching! And when you're in you're car, of course the songs are about you and they love it when you sing. See, you have to show everyone how to save the world. You're fearless, even as they chase you about. No one who knows you seems to understand why money is so meaningless or why you destroy valuable things in frequent rages. Only one thing seems to bother you, why if this is all about how great you are and how powerful and smart and invincible you are, why does everyone who purports to love and care about you relentlessly suggest that you should go to the hospital for some help? They must be crazy.
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