Posted by snapper on March 22, 2004, at 23:55:27
In reply to Re: Living Punisment » kellyr, posted by EmmyS on March 20, 2004, at 8:02:36
KellyR, indeed that was and is an exemplary and expressive interpretation of wht it is to live day in and day out with this MONSTER....... every day I want to throw in the towel and die... But I really don't want to die I just want my head to quit hurting so baaaaaad.. I feel trapped inside myself each and every day...looking At the beauty of what I know life has to offer and It seems just to elude me... if the fog would leave I feel pissed off a lot looking at my neighbors , assuming that they are leading 'normal live' giving and recieving love going on trips and vacations to thier own delight and folly. Pehaps too they suffer and just don't know what it is that they are suffering from. Of course the alternate is that many if not most of the 'other people' I envy and view as 'normal and well adjusted most likely are.It is a private hell I daily curse life and the many things that depression and anxiety have not allowed me to partake in..I don't believe that I have always been this way but seeing the glass as 'half empty' certainly become an engrained part of my very existance...I want out but I dont want to literally die I think you know what I mean. anyhow Very good writing and keep it up !!
Snapper
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