Posted by nobodyz on January 7, 2004, at 23:20:16
In reply to Re: writing, depression, procrastination, posted by antigua on January 7, 2004, at 17:24:39
Out of 35 years of writing I've been published as many times. None of it has been shown on the Hallmark channel or HBO. However, writing something of great length has been an obstacle I seem unable to overcome. Some of it, I believe, is about "self-esteem" to use a very worn out term. To be more specific, when one has a mental illness or disorder, the cultural assumption (and it is also often quite internalized) is that our minds are "questionable". I can't think of a more destructive pervasive belief than this for a writer. I have felt for a very long time that my writing has suffered as a result of stigma much more than the actual disorder I suffer from.
When I do write, I receive rave reviews and often experience astonishment on the part of any individual reader who gives me one on one feedback. I am verbally articulate as well, so they aren't astonished that I have a working brain. What this tells me is that my own "esteem" of my writing ability is low. I really believe this is the culprit.
Anyone else feel this way?
-nobodyz
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