Posted by Honore on January 24, 2007, at 15:40:11
In reply to Being clear.serious, posted by Honore on December 16, 2006, at 11:19:52
So things are going better.
I hired one model, [G], whom I feel pretty good about. Working with her was very tense at first; then she was away for about two weeks on another job, and when she came back, it seemed much more comfortable. Of course there's the Emsam, abilify (if that's helping, which I can't quite tell, but it might be), and my better relationship with my T--all of which have transformed my outlook.
Also working steadily with [A] (despite various crises on her part-- boyfriend ([H]), friends (with whom she's putting on a performance on [xxx]), job at [xxx], and, today, credit card, which has not been properly delivered. It's gotten very late, and I"m pretty sure she's not coming-- since I haven't heard from her-- ie she cancelled, provisionally-- but the work has been going so well-- and I'm very very close to finishing the drawing-- after a lot of crises about its falling apart, and then needing to be worked out. But I managed to do it, so far.
The drawing with [I] is sort of a disaster-- but a good one-- I destroyed the original charcoal, and redid it in pastel, which got to be too much and the colors got dulled and brown from dust. I think I'm getting a better idea of how to work through the dust to something worthwhile, though. I'll have to see, but I'm somewhat optimistic. Depends a lot on my mood when she comes.
I'm also working on some collages. I want to work today, but I'm tired. I need to get into a stronger, more energized state, which I hope I can, but I don't know if it will happen. (Coffee)
Wednesday, Jan 24, 4:30 pm.
Honore
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