Posted by Poet on July 7, 2006, at 9:09:37
I lost it at work two weeks ago, I dropped the F bomb. I've been officially talked (down) to and now I'm being watched. This isn't paranoia this is observing that the spies are making their rounds more frequently to see what Poet is up to.
I apologized. I explained that I had lost it- it won't happen again (fat chance.) No one except, unfortunately, a bigshot heard me say it to begin with. Damn his big ears.
I am trying to *think it* not say it. T wants me to go to my car and swear or cry when I get frustrated. I can sqeeze a stress ball. I can write it all down. The problem is that these ideas are great when I'm not angry or frustrated. When I'm caught in the moment, it's hard to control that angery outburst or inner child acting out. I hate my job. I hate everything about my job and I hate myself for being stuck in this horrible place.
I know there's nothing anyone, here, can do, I just needed to vent. Thanks.
Poet
poster:Poet
thread:664821
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