Posted by Maritza on August 26, 2007, at 23:09:53
In reply to Re: Mirtazapine: 10 days, 10 years – a question, posted by Brazilnut on August 26, 2007, at 14:38:43
Thank you for your encouragement but I could not have moved forward without reaffirming my faith and surrendering myself to God. I have made many mistakes and have failed in many important areas in my life over the past few years. I believe God spared my life in my car accident. While I was recovering from my neck surgery He made me aware of how much I had disappointed Him. This caused me tremendous guilt and I developed severe anxiety. I believe God was disciplining me so as to correct me and call me back to Him. He did this because of His great mercy and love. What father does not correct his child? Although I didn't realize this at the time, I did know that I had to change myself completely. I also knew I could not do it on my own. No one could change me. Only God. But He would not do so unless I surrendered myself to Him, completely. This I have done and will always do. I am eternally grateful to Him and want only tell others or show them by my example His great power, love and mercy, for all of us. Surviving my accident truly was a miracle! I lost control over my car in ice and was heading directly into a very large tree. I drove a convertible (very light weight) and the airbag did not deploy. My surgery was very risky and complicated. My doctor told me a number of times about the risks of dying or becoming comatose or permanently paralized, and the possibility of permanent severe pain. I was losing function in both my arms and needed to have the surgery done. Three discs were badly compressing my spinal cord. God's mercy spared me from these outcomes and I have been swimming, biking and going to the gym all summer! Additionally, due to factors that I caused myself, the likelihood of me finding employment in the career I love, teaching, was close to impossible. God's power opened doors for me and I now have two teaching jobs! The factors did not change, but with God, all things are possible. Many numerous sorrows from ruined relationships have been turned into peace and joy. I divorced my husband 2 years ago because of many reasons. Although I failed as a wife, I have asked God and my ex-husband for forgiveness and have been given a peace like I've never known before. I have learned that a parent can not help a child that has run away from home. The child has turned his back on their love, compassion and support because they want to have their own way. I have also learned that if that child returns home, apologizes sincerely, and allows his parents to take care of him, they will welcome him home and provide everything he needs, because it makes them happy and because they love him. It was that way with my parents. I moved home before my surgery and have been here since. I married young (24) to escape their control. I've learned much since then. Although I take responsiblity for my failings in my marriage, my ex-husband was an alcoholic who abused me mentally and eventually physically. We were married for 10 years. As a result, I lost my faith and nearly lost my soul. I began praying fervently before my surgery. God is our Father, and because He is perfect and Holy, His love is perfect and Holy. He is the Father I spoke of above. His love, power and mercy is beyond our understanding but we don't need to understand it to receive it. He is more powerful than abuse,addiction, anxiety, depression Klonpin, Remeron, Inderal or any physical or emotional distraction we are challenged with. These challenges are meant to turn us away. Without God we are trapped. In God there is Hope. I am blessed to experience so directly His awesome power and will always be grateful. I tell you this because I want my life to bring Glory to Him. His goodness has allowed me to help others and they will inturn glorify Him as well. Suffering does not come from God but He allows it in that it can motivate you to turn to Him. He's waiting for you. He will change your life, your heart, your mind, your body and your soul. I place my life on it. I am a living testimony of it. May God open your heart and mind to this message, for His Glory, because it makes Him happy to take care of you. May He guide you toward the help you need and may you have peace in your journey.
Maritza
ps. 8 days smoke-free! And zero withdrawal!!
I have been going to masses at a Catholic Church that prays over its members indiviually. They offer this service once a month and each time my faith is strengthened by the grace I receive. I've shared some of my miracles with you above, and those were just the smaller ones.
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