Posted by musky on July 13, 2006, at 0:58:01
In reply to Re: Hey Jules , johnny, cashy, jenico... » cashy72, posted by johnnyj on July 10, 2006, at 19:59:03
Hi all
Well its 7 weeks off Remeron and like johnny up and down.. but sleep is more solid these days.. waking up at 6am instead of 4am but still, like johnny , cant go back to sleep like I use to.. I am assuming this too will even out. so at least the quality of sleep is better these days.. the only thing is that sometimes I get a strong jerk somewhere beforefalling asleep.. strange as I havent had the jerking since i was on the higher doses of remeron... Again I think its just the nervous system adjusting...
anxiety a litle better.. still going to acupuncture and this is helping.. he is doing a differnt pattern again for this.. he is awsome acupuncturist..
LIke johnny anxiety is worse in the morning.. its like i first wake up in bed , then after about 5minutes I feel this overwhelming feeling of hoplessness, helpless, orcould just cry,... its soo wierd.. then the mood is up and down but more even the last couple days now..
Still getting the disconnected feeling but that comes and goes too..
I am just staying positive as much as i can.
I am on some of my holidays this week, just enjoying the weather and sun.. then in 2weeks i go for my "real vacation" to the beach and mts! so I am just trying to stay focused.
nausea is gone... and itchyness as well much better. After my summer vacation I am planning to do a detox .. end of August or so...
sometimes I get the real depressed feeling and just want to quit and give up, but then I shake this bad feeling and then im ok... its soo wierd this mood stuff.
last night I was listening to this live band (latin type music ) and it was sooo moving i just cried for the first time since being on Remeron. it felt so healing... my emotions have been numbed for so long on that stuff.well take care everyone.. good luck jenico keep weaning no matter what.. I think in time it does get better..
Musky
Hey Cashy,
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> I hope you had a nice vacation, but that is obvious! They are always nice.
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> Last Thursday, 6 weeks and one day after my last dose I felt better. Sleep seemed a little deeper. It is strange because the start of the week was harsh. I slept decent Thursday, Friday, and Saturday, and ok on Sunday. My mood was much better also.
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> Today was kind of hard and I had lots of anxiety after eating tonight. I am cautious because too many times I thought I turned a corner only to get knocked back. Last night I had some trouble getting to sleep and then only got up once and the alarm actually woke me up at 6 am. That hasen't happened for 6 weeks! I seem prone to ups and downs so I am just a little optimistic right now. And also prone to sleep getting better only to fall back again. I like getting woken up by the alarm but I do feel different after getting up in the sense I used to be able to crash right back to sleep and now I am wide awake.
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> The morning anxiety you describe is so accurate and I think Musky has the same. It is always worse upon waking up. Strange for sure. Week 4 and 5 were terrible for me. I would wake up and after hitting a certain waking state the anxiety would hit, not a panic attack, just nagging. Those few weeks nothing helped me. Not, reading, meditation, music, etc., I just was sick of it all and just wanted to rest but even that was hard.
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> Cashy, I hope you, and all of us, find the peace we need and deserve.
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> Cheers
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> johnnyj
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