Posted by cockeyed on September 15, 2005, at 19:14:33
Basically, I don't want to. I wanna get blitzed. And I can't. But I saw a new P-doc who suggested a method of tapering off. Much to my amazement, I'd been gradually doing so because my income has plunged. [the real world can be such a drag]
So here I am, kvetching my butt off. I want my whiskey and I want it...pretty soon all the time.
I've come to realize I drink out of boredom.
I'm disabled and I have things to do. Which I won't 'cause of fear of failure. This is a joke
which is not funny to me. I grew up in a family in which ridicule was a governing device. So If I goof, I quit. And that is the undoing of me.
Because I never goof with booze. So I tell myself.
I come from an alcoholic background and am comfortable around drunks and no-accounts. Bad cess. So, today, I start trying to taper.
Now, I'll read the various posts and see how much advice there is here. believe me. It helps keep me sane. Cockeyed
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