Posted by barbaracat on August 24, 2005, at 13:56:48
In reply to Ante up. New card dealt., posted by velodog2 on August 23, 2005, at 22:16:48
Ahhh, poo. What a crummy thing to happen. Good, bad, it's always rough to end a relationship. But I've gotta say - a note? just a note? No face to face honest give you a chance to talk? Tsk tsk.
How long has it been without the Prozac? A little over 4 weeks, right? It sounded like you were doing OK, depressed but still determined. This is just a thought, so take it for what it's worth. With this new outcome, leaving a note and splitting, it would seem that your partner may have had this in mind for a while and whatever the reason, your being on meds or not, he was thinking about it, planning it. This was in the airwaves, so to speak, you can't help but pick up on it and feel the anxiety and unclarity of something that doesn't feel right.
It will be interesting to see how you feel without those uncertain bad vibes in your energy space. Yes, the split will have it's own heartaches. But maybe the subliminal dissatisfaction and vague threats aimed your way was affecting you more than you realized.
It would be helpful to separate out the different streams of what must feel like a jumbled mass of feelings. There might be a tiny bit of relief in there as well and if so, grab onto it and let that relief grow. Because it's too easy to thrash ourselves for what we did wrong. That's where the downward spin starts so hopefully you can pull yourself back from going there.
About the Prozac, you'll know what's best for you. There's no need to white knuckle it though massive pain. It seems like you've got a bunch of processing to do about your life circumstances, and on one hand you don't want to sublimate or blunt that process, on the other you don't want to go into a tailspin where you can't handle anything. I wish the best for you and that you can find a balanced path through all this upheaval. - Barbara
> Whoops. Got home tonight to find a charming note from my partner informing me that he was done, and gone. Anyone care to place bets on how long I stay off of prozac now? Ironic, since going back on it was what he wanted.
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