Posted by JessieMarie on February 28, 2005, at 15:15:51
In reply to Re: withdrawal » JessieMarie, posted by SLS on February 28, 2005, at 7:07:04
Thank you Scott for the tip on how to go off the meds better. I am concerned though because I don't want to harm my body more by A) taking more drugs so that the effects of this drug will stop B) tapering down my dosage in a way the doctor DID NOT prescribe or C) starting the medication again after 4.5 days of not being on it.
Yesterday was a terrible day, I went through hell, I thought I was dying. I cried at everything, got mad at people, swore like a sailor, and was constantly wanting to vomit yet starving. Today is better. I now find these symptoms amusing. I was driving in my car listening to Phantom of the Opera and started sobbing while singing along because the music is so passionate. Then instead of sobbing I was laughing hysterically.
I do take back my comment that people shoudl not go on Effexor. When I look back, being on it helped me so much for those 2 years. I was very stable, not suicidal AT ALL, and very confident in myself. But I'm such an independent person that being dependent on a drug to make me that way was no longer an option. I was almost 17 when the put me on it and it is very possible that the melo-drama of moving from small town USA to a suburb, trying to make new friends, high school in general, and a long time boyfriend beaking up with me were enough to make me the sad, unconfident, suicidal girl I was. Now I'm in college, 19 years old, happy and healthy. I finally spread my wings and left my parents' nest, found a man who I love with all my heart, and I am succeeding in school. I had to get off this and see if I could live my life not being dependent on a drug. If I can't, if it is truly a chemical imbalance, then I will happily go back on. I just had to see. Plus, it's terrible, but I'm in college. I like to drink once in a while. NOthing huge, just a bit, and the medication reacts VERY badly with alcohol in my system. I learned my lesson the hard way. I wanted to see if I could get off it and be happy and healthy on my own and then maybe have a few drinks every month. I don't need a lecture that I'm underage, because in Canada it isn't. I just want to have some fun without feeling like I'm dying because of the reaction.
Anyway, please nobody post anything negative as to what I have said. I don't need another mommy or pastor to tell me that what I am doing is wrong. Not that anyone would do that, just I couldn't really handle it right now.
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