Posted by obsidian on January 21, 2009, at 20:57:07
In reply to Re: I am a marijuana addict, posted by Anwar on January 21, 2009, at 20:13:36
> > > obsidian, can't help you obtain marijuana, but if you truly believe you're an addict and addicted to marijuana do you really believe that you can use it in moderation? Or, after a brief period of moderate use, do you see yourself over-using marijuana again just like before?
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> > geez anwar, I can't really answer that. I won't know that until I have it in my posession again.
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> > >Also, what purpose does marijuana use have in your life? To relax, escape, numb out feelings, highten senses? If you could answer that question maybe you could find a safer, more appropriate (legally)alternative. Or maybe not. Anwar.
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> > all of the above...
> > I could find some of those things in another way.
> > for the moment, I shall distract myself from thinking about pot.
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> > thanks,
> > sid
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> > Sid, Sorry. I should have re-phrased the question. Have you ever tried controlled use of marijuana before? If so, how did it turn out. One more question: What led you to stop using pot in the 1st place? By the way, I'm an addict too. My drug of choice is "more". anwar.It's alright...I know what you're getting at.
mmm...well, I guess there have been times when I have smoked occasionally...like when I was around certain people and they had it..I didn't "have to have" my own. It was so casual back then. no stressing about it. then I guess...now this was about 10 years ago, I started smoking it fairly regularly, but I don't remember being such a fiend about it. That lasted about a year. I don't remember having large amounts of it. I stopped. I don't even remember having problems with stopping (I'm sure I could've just forgotten!). I know I likely distanced myself from some friends who smoked a lot. I think I started running then?? Officially, I stopped because I went to therapy and got on psych meds.
now, about 10 years later..here I am. It all started very casually..some guy I know said, "you want some pot?" and I was like "ok, sure". I think to self "oh yeah, I've done that before.."
and so through a lot of last year I was buying pot, and then it became a regular thing. But now I am under a lot of chronic stress, am used to the relief of it, and missing it a lot.
People in my life seem to think it's not good for me. I think smoking it as much as I was wasn't good for me. I'd like some other coping skills.thanks,
sidPS I like this line from a song..."I used to do a little, but the little didn't do it, so the little got more and more"
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