Posted by catmint on October 27, 2007, at 10:16:42
I'm not feeling good, because I did coke again tonight. I'm needing support of any kind. Please, I'm not into self-pity or medication. I'm incredibly self absorbed right now, AA does not help. I'm not a hopeless case by any means, I am just relapsing. I'm not into coke at all, I don't crave it ever, I only do it once a year, yet I have been thrown for a loop. I'm going to need help recovering from this binge. Any advice? No meds, no AA, I'm stubborn, what is going to help me? I'm not addicted to mania, i'm mostly deppressed, single parent, I hate manic moods, I avoid them now at all costs. It just happened so fast, someone offered me the coke and I took it, end of story. Please does anyone understansd? I'm lonely and continue to lose friends. I'm supporting myself and my son, it's really hard. I'm just trying to avoid crashing. oh well, I f*ck*d up!!!
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