Posted by Harry Potter on September 8, 2007, at 7:03:39
In reply to Starting AA - advice on the program, posted by nolegirl23 on September 7, 2007, at 23:51:59
I have been attending AA for 5 years, and have been sober for only 2 of them ( I say only, but this is a miracle in itself). I am 30 now and happier than ever; when I first came to AA I was in a state and didn't appreciate just how ill I was. For three years I toyed with the programme and kept picking up again, immediately returning to the misery I had left. My life was crumbling around me and my health was poor. I suffered for some time with cravings everytime I stopped, yet I still didn't do all that was suggested to me in the rooms. I found it hard to get totaly honest with others, but I was the one who paid the price. I was put off by the mention of "God". I now understand the Higher Power and can truly say that i've had a spiritual awakening. It happened in spite of me. The only thing I did in the end was give up!! I gave up trying to drink sensibly, I knew that could never happen, I gave up fighting in my head and finaly accepted that alcohol had and would always beat me into submission it had always been that way. I never had any control over anything the moment I picked up that first drink. What I have found is a way of life that is infinitely better than I could have imagined. I didn't believe it though when I first went. The steps are essential. They are the tools for change, anmd change we must. I implore anybody who is suffering to have some blind faith. Get on your knees even if you don't believe it, how can it harm you? Keep going to AA meetings and listen only to what you identify with, don't look for the differences in people. There is wisdom and love beyond measure in those rooms the world over. You are no longer alone. God bless.
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