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Posted by SometimesBlue on August 21, 2007, at 10:28:52

In reply to Re: I HATE MYSELF, posted by blueboy on August 20, 2007, at 13:40:50

>> Okay, I'll tell where to start. Go to Alcoholics Anonymous. You are not going to work out a personal dialogue in writing or inside your own head.

Going there, it's like admitting to the world outside myself that I have a problem. I don't always do "stuff"...but when I'm low, I am REALLY low and this seems to be the only way to get out of that crappy feeling that surrounds me. But then ofcourse there's that guilty "i'm a sh***y person" feeling the next day. And no one knows i drank or took some pills, they just see I'm in a good mood and that's fine.
Going there means I have to turn my back to everything I once enjoyed (even when it wasn't such a good idea). And then what? I can't be around alcohol or drugs...otherwise what's the point of going, right? And if anyone finds out, you know, they'll treat me different.
How did I get here? I'm not looking for an answer to that one...just throwing it out there...

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