Posted by verne on April 8, 2006, at 6:47:53
The last few months have been brutal - off the stress scale. Everytime I turned around something happened. Just about every internet order arrived with parts missing or in the wrong color. I tried to buy some pot and it turned out to be crank or something (blew $200 on that one)
I had a bad broadband internet connection for 3 months because the installer hooked it up wrong. A fantasy sports outfit was jerking me around for over $1,500 in prize winnings - the check was long overdue. Add to that plumbing problems and the neighbor's dog and I was near the breaking point.
Anyway now that everything is finally "fixed" -money arrived, plumbing working, dog quieter - I feel like I can breathe again and make a run at sobriety.
I realize most of my "problems" were trivial in comparison to what most people go through daily. In fact, much of my trouble would be considered a luxury elsewhere. This tells me how truly shaky I really am.
What's worrisome is my lack of patience. I can't let every wind of circumstance blow me back into drinking. Somehow I have to make this recovery count and not "dry drunk" it until the next typhoon.
I really hope I actually do the positive things I always talk about like the Borderline Skills Manual, Egoscue stretching exercises, meditation, light yoga, reading scripture, etc...
Probably taking a break soon.
Verne
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