Posted by AMD on March 11, 2006, at 19:27:20
I'm freaking out over a cocaine binge from Wednesday night. I did so much, so fast -- 12 hours -- and then collapsed into sleep. I've been feeling depressed and phsically ill all weekend.
Is this going to pass?
It's been about four months since my last use. I am entering rehab this week, as my life has been going so well that I'm afraid things will now fall apart.
I am also worried that I'll never recover.
How long can I expect to stay sick? I'm having cold sweats; I'm tired; I feel like throwing up; and I have no energy. I'm also cloudy headed and simply miserable. I want this to pass, but it's not getting better.
I've recovered before -- can I expect the same to happen this time? I'm scared.
I'm also worried about getting Parkinson's. Is this likely? Can I expect to have permanent brain damage from this particular binge?
I just want to sleep. I've already wasted almost $10,000 from a single night, delirious. Does this sound like cocaine or perhaps a manic episode? It's out of control.
I need serious help but I don't know where to start. I've tried AA but it didn't seem to be effective. So now I'm looking into therapy. Can I expect to find some success there?
Is there anything that might help me get rid of these symptoms? I have work Monday and I need to get my mind right before then. Should this pass?
Thanks to all those who have been patient with me in the past.
amd
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