Posted by woodywho on February 8, 2006, at 8:44:34
The first thing that I want to say is this. I have invested so much of my time into finding a way to deal with addiction (which I have to do to stay alive). I have been in rehab, psych wards, detoxed myself etc...
I am just looking for advice that has worked for others. I have an AA sponser which i really like. I suffer from depression which makes it hard to love anyone else, let alone myself. The zoloft is ok (minus the side effects).
I know there are people that can relate, but I have a hard time expressing those feelings in fear that "nobody will understand". It's a visious cycle. One second I think I have everything under control and the next minute I am hiding in my bedroom drinking a 12 pack. That is the cycle that I am trying to break.
I had a great job and a great house and I threw much of that away because I wanted to numb my racing mind.
Ok, that is enough rambling. I have been sober for 50 days now. I have been sober for longer but it's a start.
Take care,
Woodywho
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