Posted by verne on November 8, 2005, at 18:04:32
In reply to Re: Antabuse side effects - skin rash, fever?, posted by Reggie BoStar on November 8, 2005, at 1:42:20
Reggie,
Thanks for the thoughtful post. I've been living in next week, next month, and next year and consequently get overwhelmed in the present.
I spend so much time thinking everything to death I don't get around to doing anything. I think about a walk and rather than just go out the door, I think about it from every angle. I finally conclude that there's no direction I want to go.
I hope my daughter can help get me to a park for a couple long walks each week but it's looking like she won't have time. I'm thinking about trying a walk in the early morning hours. I'm only 4 blocks from the trailhead to some park trails but I really dislike the walk to get there - dogs, no sidewalk for a stretch, traffic ....
Since I have no social life I can't find like-minded people who drive to the park to walk. I know there are groups that meet every morning.
I gave up driving because of the same social anxiety. I can't deal with the other drivers and traffic in general. I'm also hypervigilant and tend to exhaust myself driving. Anyway, if I were driving, I could at least get to a lake or park.
Your reminder to get back into a day at a time really helped. I'll try to get back more in the moment, not worry about the big plan or picture. Try, at least, to get a certain amount of exercise every day, meditate, do a little yoga, and read (as opposed to computer games and tv).
I did cancel my subscription to a game site (pogo.com) this morning, hoping to replace it with healthier activities. I've been meaning to start the Skills Training Course for Borderline Personality Disorder. I have both the manual and the text. I also have some spiritual reading I would like to do.
I guess there's hope.
Verne
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