Posted by maddawgz on November 5, 2005, at 18:10:25
In reply to Re: Methadone, posted by Declan on November 4, 2005, at 22:31:16
hi all thanks for your words of wisdom!! I'ts normal to feel the pharm is cheating you I've heard this from other ppl 2 gees paranoia but when u start feeling like me well damn!!! Ok a little run down i had family here from o/seas and for 3 weeks i was constantly stressed..during that time i was on 15mg but stupid me reduced to 1mg for one week couldnt handle it so went back 1mg up so im now 5days again on my normal dose but i still feel some tooth pain, and to be honest depression too!! Now im not sure if its backlash from family issues for 3weeks and im crashing or for the bette r word or coming down from all the stress as i used some benzos in that time when theywhere here and also drank a few times? only twice I wouldnt think that would be enough to make me feel how i do now? as well its been 6days sine they went home/ overseas!! B4 they came i was ok but i do suffer anyhow from Panic/ Anxiety! but I've never felt this kinda desperate lerthargy before?I dont have any withdrawal symptoms though like watery eyes or cramps so strange??? I have a history b4 the methadone of suicide benzo use alchol etc etc but id day for 10yrs I've been ok on mmt well havnt suicded anyhow dunno bout ok? Just think my emotions have been at bay more!!..The way im feeling lately leads me to 3 things? My dose isnt right yet? i need an increase? and or i need a shrink!! I feel desperate and scared like this, Like im slipping into a hole I rarel go out the house anymore for last 4months. On and off housebound great huh specially for one being on a methadone program cant afford to be housebound,I have someone whom takes me for my dose as i cant drive now? too scared after accident!!3months ago,
I just want to feel how i did 3months ago stable? um and okaish!! sorry for the ramble SLS its funny u mention bipolar? never been diagnosed but hymmmm makes me wonder? Not a big fan of SSRI meds zoloft made me flip out!!! So med phobic there too at bit,Thanks for the replies Kind regards MD
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