Posted by alexandra_k on January 19, 2005, at 0:11:30
I have a couple of old contacts. Very heavy, constant pot smokers and also into other stuff. I had managed to kind of keep out of contact with them last time I moved house, but caught up with them a day or two ago. One of them wanted me to help him fill in the forms for a student loan / allowance because he has decided to be a drug and alchohol councellor and wants to do a course through polytech.
We got really hammered.
Then went out to see another old friend.
All the verbal abuse and crap. I remember what I didn't like about them and why I feel so bad about myself when I am around them.
We went to visit a friend of theirs. I didn't say a word. Not even a 'hello'. They didn't talk to me either, but I was feeling paranoid and antisocial.Got a railing for my rudeness after.
WHy do I keep doing this to myself?
Going round and round the same crummy circles.
I hate it but I can't seem to stop it.
They know where I live now.
They always find out.
Bugger.
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