Posted by partlycloudy on January 10, 2005, at 8:18:54
In reply to why tomorrow?, posted by justyourlaugh on January 9, 2005, at 22:40:48
As much as I struggle to keep away from drinking - and it IS a struggle for me, and not a "choice" - it is a barrier between me and life. It severs all ties to the world for me, that's why tomorrow looks so attractive. Another chance to start again. But you grow tired of having to "start" all the time. It's nice to have a sober day and night, and feel the next morning that you are continuing instead of having to start afresh. Such a simple lesson, but one I am learning by banging my head on it repeatedly. Usually I find that I drink because I resent not being able to. I thumb my hose at the world and myself with my martini and it is not a good thing.
Let's see what this morning brings for us. Let's live in this little slice of the day and not think about the afternoon or the evening ahead.
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