Posted by Slavegirl on December 20, 2004, at 18:01:00
Hey there, just wanted to say I'm new here and to thank you all for just being there to listen (read) and be honest with your feelings and what you're taking (or not taking). Much better than lying to a partner or therapist or even friend, knowing they don't FULLY understand....since they've never been where you're at. On Day 9 of Cold Turkey from 4 meds...most stupid thing I've ever done..but I'm over the worst and too late to turn back now....flushed the Effexor, Xanax, Stilnoct (Zolpidem I think...sleeping tab) and Tegretol down the toilet...didn't think about it...was so addicted to the Xanax and Stilnoct...just became so stressed and freaked out and more stressed and didn't want to deal with what I was feeling and got to love the feeling of that wonderful bliss in just sleeping (I battle with Insomnia too...most of my life - I'm 36). My partner was freaked out about the tranqs and sleeping tabs and it's basically for him, and the kids that I'm trying to come clean, although I've always suffered with depression and bipolar disorders for most of my life...so I know that I'll have to deal with that bit later. I see the therapist tomorrow and now have to tell her what I've done....sheer madness. The withdrawals from the Effexor on it's own was sheer hell...never known anything like it and the nightmares were the worst I've ever ever ever had..I even believed in aliens and that's not like me at all...became scared of my own beloved cat. Well...still up....not at my best, body still weak and sore...feel a bit fluish at times, headaches....but trying to get on with it.
Thanks for listening....
SGirl
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thread:432159
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