Posted by AdaGrace on November 4, 2004, at 20:50:16
Drank before work (and during since I'm being so honest here). And for the third time this year, they smelled it on me. I lied. I always lie. I am a mess. Truely a mess. The constant ups and downs are just too hard to bear. Am I bi-polar? Am I insane? I am sitting here, completely ticked at myself for running out of booze. I have none. After the binge today, I only had enough for 1 & 1/2 glasses when I got home. Now I need something to help me sleep. I am so sick of this feeling. Tired of feeling like I have to have it. Tired of that scared feeling when I find out I don't have any more. The searching through all the cabinets. Because there was that one time I found a bottle stashed in the pantry......Yeah what a thrill that was. I am so sick of this.
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