Posted by verne on October 15, 2004, at 21:15:53
I've been on a bit of a dry drunk lately. I have no easy way to get alcohol - too far to lug and I don't drive. (hypervigilant agoraphobe) My delivery system of 12 years years is no longer operational and can't easily be replaced. (a good thing, I'm not trying to remedy)
So I'm getting "high" with a blue-lotus, white-lotus, damiana mix in a water pipe. At least I threw out the kratom, wild dagga, morning glory seeds, and prickly poppy. Blue Lotus is a mild sedative and aphrodesiac. Not as good as pot but legal.
Anyway, I'm on thin ice. Another warning sign is if I start putting chocolate syrup on everything. There's something about chocolate that triggers drinking - usually the next day. But I didn't buy any chocolate today and won't have another chance for a couple weeks. (I hire someone to take me shopping about twice a month)
I hope to start meditating to the brainwave CD's tomorrow and go for a long walk. I see the ice cracking.
verne
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