Posted by antigua on September 10, 2004, at 15:12:25
In reply to Antigua, posted by saw on September 10, 2004, at 2:43:54
Well, even dreaming gets me into trouble sometimes. I have a dream (or a fantasy) and I can obsess over that as much as anything. For days I can be disabled-- it's better now, maybe because real life is slowly getting better than the fantasy. I don't know.
Yes, I would love to snap my fingers and all the troubles would be gone. I might get into trouble for saying this, but my T swears that once I've resolved my csa issues I willl be less likely to indulge in destructive habits. She has always said this, and in a way I've always used it as an excuse to continue... I know this goes against the tenets of any recovery program and I hesitate to even bring it up.
I will say this, though. When I was able to string together a whole year of behaving myself, I realized how great I was doing in therapy. I was making huge progress. Why? Well part of me wasn't hiding behind the alcohol or the drugs anymore--I had to go straight to the source of my troubles. I couldn't dull them or numb myself and become distracted by my guilt over using or the shame of my actions. I think it cleared my mind to address the issues.
antigua
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