Posted by verne on September 6, 2004, at 23:26:45
It all began two days ago when I tried zoloft for the first time, and it made me very agitated. The next day I talked myself into drinking to deal with the zoloft "hangover" (I've gone months, even years without alcohol but haven't done very well since April). Zoloft was a lame excuse but I went with it.
Into my sixth beer, my judgment impaired, I decided to harvest some morning glory seeds from my garden, grind them up, and put them in tea. I had read online that there's something mildly hallucinogenic in the variety of morning glories I have growing in my garden.
I read reports that 50-100 seeds may cause nausea, and to get the desired effect, you would have to take more than a hundred and be sick to your stomach first. Since I had a high tolerance for LSD in my hippie days, I went with 400 seeds. (I'm the mad scientist when it comes to experimenting on my body)
I felt something almost immediately but it had way too much of that old-acid strychnine feeling and I never got to the "good part". I needed about a dozen more beers to deal with the head-wired-in-a-vise feeling that lasted over 12 hours. I couldn't relax and felt a lot of tension in the back of my neck and head. It was like an itch I couldn't scratch, with a yawn and a burp that never came. All in all, a bad trip with no upside.
I won't repeat this experiment on any scale. I had been eyeing the morning glories in my backyard all summer, struggling with the temptation to "poison" myself (typical borderline behavior). Once an idea takes hold I have a hard time shaking it and it's only a matter of time.
I'm sharing this to warn others and, perhaps, deter them from trying this. Many intoxicants or hallucinogens found in plants are poisonious. Or there are so many other unpleasant compounds present the ill effects outweigh any benefit.
*As a footnote, packaged morning glory seeds are treated with a mild poison to prevent misuse.
I somehow made it through today without drinking. This morning it was like emerging from the storm cellar to find my life in shambles. The previous two weeks had been very productive and things were looking up. Again, it's typical borderline behavior to sabatoge any sort of success. (I used to self injure only when something good happened to me) I realize now that I was on very thin ice all last week.
Verne
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