Posted by partlycloudy on August 27, 2004, at 6:48:57
So does that mean it's not ME talking? I get all maudlin and feeling ever so sorry for myself when drunk. Is it because the alcohol peels away those inhibitions and that's the real, yes-it's-true-I-really-AM-a-loser pathetic person talking?
Or is it that the alcohol prevents my liver from processing my meds correctly and so my depression rears its head at that time??
In which case, am I ever going to get better without meds? I already know I can't drink. Hasn't stopped me, but I know that I can't do it. You know, I don't personally believe that drinking is a response to stress. I think it's a habit, an addiction. Definitely a spiritual one. I can go weeks and months without drinking and not experience physical withdrawl. I like how it alters my world. I like that loopy, loosey-goosey feeling. I wish someone would put duct tape on my mouth with a little hole for a straw so I could drink the martinis without saying stupid things. I guess you'd have to glue my fingers together, too, so I wouldn't be able to use a keyboard but could still pick up a glass.
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