Posted by Caper on June 24, 2004, at 16:57:42
In reply to drunk and suicidal - killer combination, posted by Impermanence on June 21, 2004, at 19:09:32
No no no!
Impermanence, you do not want to be dead, you just don't want to feel how you are feeling now! I'm literally crying at the thought of you doing something to yourself. There is hope, there is help, and there is so much out there for you that you cannot begin to imagine! You are so young and have so much compassion and insight and caring for others.
I'm glad you're going to an inpatient place soon, as you said. (So am I, if you haven't read the posts I wrote before this one.) You can get past this, I know it. It won't be easy of course, but it will be worth it, for you and for your family and friends. You have more insight, compassion, and empathy for others than I thought I guy could have (Sorry guys, to be a sexist woman!).
When you get to the hospital you're considering....I'll make you a deal. I know it's not pleasant, no matter how fancy the place is, because of the feeling of being out of control, but....I'll stick it out if you will. If you get this message in time, hopefully we will both be able to get back in touch in a few days or weeks and be sober and have a new resolve to stay that way.
You've referred to a social phobia in the past, and I have something to tell you about that as well (a success story) but will save it for another time.
Doorbell just rang so have to go quickly now.
Hang in there! We can do this!
Love and hugs,
Caper
> I just read Arries and Capers posts, they put me in my place. Haw dare me feel sorry for myself. Its pathetic and out of order, and just bloody selfish. I could be out there doing something productive and helpful with my life, but no I've turned back to the bottle. I feel so f**cking useless right now. Please forgive me my friends, I know you are all in pain. I'm going back to the psychiatric ward in a few days with the persuading of my beautiful mum. I can't seem to get off the drink by myself and I'm only going to top myself. I think it's about time I face facts. I am thinking of you all. If I don't get in touch for a while you know why.
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> Lots and lots of love. Look after yourselfs you beautiful people. xxx
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